Graduation [ June 16, 2009 ]
I can't believe that it finally comes to an end.
The door to the real world opens up for me & i'm just not ready.
I don't want to seperate from my high school friends.
Especially him, the one that I have fallen in love with; im just scared of losing him.
I feel like we will fall apart after I graduate, & you'll simply move on.
The past year 1/2 that i've known you; i've fallen completely in love with you.
You were the motivation for me to get up & come to school.
But now, we're drifting apart; & moving on our own.
*sigh* ... I don't know what to do now.
College is coming way too fast, I start August 26th.
I have to get a job, so I can save up to move to California.
I need to lose some weight, & practice on my dancing more.
I need to start getting my life on track so I can meet my expectations.
I need to achieve what i've been working for, dancing & music.
I just know this is the path I must lead, I don't feel happy doing anything else.
My parents want me to be a doctor, but that's not who I am.
Is it always about the money ? Because I always thought it was about what you loved.
... I don't know, just soo much on my mind right now.
I needed to get this out of my system...
1 comment:
first of all, i'm proud of you fa making it this far. :] when i met you, you were nothing but a sophomore... LOOK HOW FAR WE'VE COME! secondly, i know you're strong... you'll pull through whatever struggle it is that you're facing. i know we're talking about it on aim right now, so i'm not even gonna bother mentioning it in this comment here...
what school are you going to, boo?? i'm glad you got accepted & are enrolled somewhere. @ least you're attempting to do something with ya life... you're doing better & more than most, so just keep ya head up. :] don't let the world defeat you.
& a doctor?? that's what i wanna be! my parents always told me to work hard @ whatever i do so i can achieve what they couldn't... they don't care what i wanna be, i don't think. i've always wanted to be a doctor, so... i guess i really wouldn't know. they've just supported that, cause well... they have no other choice but to.
i love you!
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