The Worst Day Of My Life ...

I don't even want to explain in full detail what i've been through today; because it's very personal, but I never realized that doing harm to yourself affects not only yourself, but the people around you also.

I've broken promises & hurt peoples hearts; & I apologize, even though an apology doesn't really solve anything.

I've completely torn myself apart & finally exposed my scars; & I've realized that I need to stop this behavior & learn to appreciate what I have in front of me.

I thought friends were temporary, but the group of friends that i've got will last a lifetime, & I thank every single one of them who helped me out through my pain & lifted my spirits up.

& mostly, I apologize to him ... the last person I would EVER want to see sad. I really can't explain it in words; but just know that it wasn't your fault; you've completely done nothing to hurt me or damage me, i've done it to myself ... & I thank you for not giving up on me & still willing to keep our friendship ...

So, what do I do now ? I don't know, but I hope to never do this to myself again ...