Monday, June 1, 2009

Long Update.

I haven't written on here in a bout a week, & I've had alot going on too.

I did my schools fashion / talent show, let me start by saying it was " whack ". Not alot of people participated in the talent show, but the fashion show was pretty good; I did my thing on the runway with my pajama's & my skinny jeans; but I didn't walk the way I thought it would be.

I had my senior field trip on friday to Six Flags New England; it was pretty fun. I finally got to be with the class of '09 and not worry about anyone or stress him that day. I was pretty scared of this catapult ride, I will never ever again in my life go on that again. I've never been soo scared of a ride before, & i'm a huge thrill-rider too. Guess i've met my match.

After the field trip, I went to the carnival with Valerie around 10PM; it was pretty whack, me & her didn't really talk like that, so my mom showed up and played a couple of games, & then went home; WHACK.

Today in school I was pretty happy to be in school today; laughing & all; until 7th period, where im spending my last moments with some of the people that I love & care for the most. The people in my 7th period are amazing, especially that one person ( no need for names ); I really felt like crying. To know that i'm graduating & they're going on with their high school experience, & that I won't be a part of the rest of their experience. I'm just stressing that right now.

I've never realized how much I love this boy, like it's crazy & we're not even a couple ! He's my bestfriend that I fell in love with, but I understand & know why it's unhealthy for me to feel like this. I'd rather have him be my bestfriend & KNOW that he will always be there for me; instead of us being in a relationship & arguing & fighting & breaking up & him not being there in the end. I want this boy to be in my life forever & being friends is the #1 best thing to do. Maybe in the future, maybe 10 yrs from now if we're still seeing eachother, then maybe I could take it to the next level with him, but who knows; maybe true love is somewhere out there in the world for me ? Is it him ? Or is it someone else ? Either way, I cannot stress & cry & damage myself over him any longer because if it's not meant to be right now or ever, then it wasn't meant to be. I'm just glad I have such an understanding & amazing person in my life. I don't mean to put him in the spotlight, because I have other bestfriends too that love & care about me as much, or maybe even more than he does; so shout outs to them too ! haha.

I get my yearbook this friday, & I saw the picture they've chosen, & I absolutely HATE the way that I look in that picture. Oh well though, at least I have my spot in the yearbook so that people can remember my face. I can't believe high school is ending in about 2 weeks & i'm finally moving onto the real life. Choices, decisions, college, love, partying, careers, etc. Wow, I can't believe it, i'm finally reaching the exit door of the teachers that guided me & gave me the tools I need to succeed in life, & now it's time to put it all to use ...


1 comment:

J-Jones said...

it's about time you updated! lol. just playing... you know i loves you! ^_^ i remember the catapult, lol. you were on the phone like "OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!" lol, funny shit. sorry everything's been so WHACC lately... =/ if anything, i would've thought the talent show/fashion show went good! ... guess not, ha. i'm so proud of you though, anthony. :] you finally made it. i told you all you had to do was sticc it out. when you graduate, you BEST be putting some pictures up! lol. ily, boo.