Reaching the end.

Monday & Tuesday are the final 2 days of school. Finals were over Friday, but I have to come in Monday for our 2nd graduation rehearsal. Graduation rehearsal was hilarious on Friday. It took forever for Mrs. Moore [ Vice Principal ] to call everyones name to put us in our assigned seats for graduation. There's about 500 seniors; so yeah that shit took like 1 hour to do. I hate Mrs. Moore soo much, words cannot describe how much I despise this lady. She's forever getting on someone for a dresscode violation, & if you talk back to her, she either reacts with a suspension or in-house detention. Pshh, freak that trick ! We went through one complete run through on how it is going to be on graduation, so we got the whole thing down. But no, Mrs. Moore wants to go through the whole thing a second time, like WTF we already know what to do ! So while she starts doing the whole thing over, alot of people decide to leave, including myself. It was 12PM, and we had practice since 10AM, I was definetely not having it, so I left. I came back in though to come get some of my friends because I didn't wanna be outside alone lol, & as im getting them, Mrs. Moore goes " WHO DISMISSED ALL THE STUDENTS ? " ; haha that shit made me laugh, for the simple fact that she didn't realize that everybody left until she put her head up from the list of names she was reading. Haha, she's freakin slow.

My birthday on Thursday was pretty good, I guess. Just the fact that i'm 18; makes it seem like I can do anything. I'm definitely going clubbing alot more often & living my life with my besties. My friend Michelle bought me a 5LB bag of Swedish fish, LOL; she knows that i'm addicted to those candies; she knows how to get to my heart ! My other friend Tatiana, brought me Iced coffee & a bagel from Dunkin' Donuts, which also got to my heart lol, along with $20; which I tried giving back to her but she refused. & Valerie is planning something for me next weekend after graduation, maybe NYC ? IDK. My boo [ HIM ]; lol i'm sick of calling him " him "; but I don't wanna say his name because I don't want any of his groupies to know that i'm talking about him, but he's on my top on myspace ! If you're my friend, I suggest you go check who this "him" really is ! But yeah, he gave me a hug, & said he couldn't get me anything for my b-day because he's broke; which I really could care less because the only gift he could possibly give me is himself, lol. Ah, he just gets to my heart everytime I talk to him or see him, even though we argue like a married couple. I still love him muchos !

I basically spent my b-day with Danilda, & it was straight; didn't do much, I just love being with her, we would always do something stupid or talk about some shit going on in our lives. She said that she was gonna pay for my tongue piercing, & I really want it, but i'm super scared. I also want a lip piercing, with the ring, omg I think those are soo cute, so i'm stuck between a tongue piercing, or a lip piercing. IDK.

I'm also supposed to get a tattoo with "him" ; on my wrist of a nautical star in purple & black, but i'm having major doubts of even getting it, because me & him argue constantly, & im always crying over him. I don't want any regrets, so I might just wait for a little while until I get this one, I want to be 100% sure that I want to put him on my wrist forever. IDK.

I need to start talking to people & start going to the clubs & messing with people, because ever since i've got stuck on him, I completely cut off that lifestyle of meeting new guys & being with them. I think it's time to finally get back out there, just like my social worker says.

Hmmm, I think that's about it that happened in my life so far, nothing more. Well I guess I can put this in. I've been making layouts on my MySpace, & deleting them like 5 minutes after putting it on my page, IDK why I do that ? because I work soo freaking hard on my graphics, & I always remain unsatisfied with myself. I think I expect too much from myself, always looking for perfection in my designing. I don't even have a passion for graphic design, but i'm gonna pursue it as a side career since I know I can make alot of money from it. My heart belongs on the dancefloor & in the television screen. That's where my true passion belongs.